Zahara is one of the most beloved and popular artists on the Spanish music scene. The Andalusian performer has been immersed in the world of music for more than two decades, during which time she has managed to carve out a successful musical career by publishing more than ten studio albums. Her latest album, Madre, was released in 2022, and in it Zahara collects unreleased songs from her discography, songs that she never saw the light of day and that she wanted to capture in this very personal project.
However, the composer’s life has not been a bed of roses. This is how she recently told it in the Spanish Radio Television documentary series, Suicidio, el dolor invisible, directed and written by Conchi Cejudo, and where the singer has revealed one of the hardest episodes of her life.
”When I was twelve years old I had to deal with a kind of double life in which I was bullied at school, but I didn’t dare… I didn’t know it was bullying nor did I think that was happening to me. I thought I deserved it. Therefore it was not something for which I wanted or could ask for help,” he began by saying.
The artist claimed that after suffering episodes of bullying at school she did not want to tell anything to her parents or the rest of her friends. ”It seemed embarrassing to me and I didn’t want the rest of my friends who had nothing to do with the school to know that they did that to me there and maybe if they found out they would do it to me too,” she declared.
Furthermore, the composer revealed that bullying was not the only episode she experienced during her childhood. ”I kept it totally secret because at the same time it was also a time when they sexually abused me,” she explained. ”It was all part of the same feeling of guilt, of punishment, of deserving it, of leading a life that was disgusting and disgusting to me, but that I deserved. “I didn’t know how to fix it because I didn’t think there was a solution,” she added.
Therefore, after years suffering in silence from this pain, the artist thought at only 16 years old that the only way that could stop her pain was suicide. ”It’s very hard, because no one explains it to you. I couldn’t talk to anyone and I find it very funny that talking about suicide incites suicide. If I had had references who talked about this, I would have understood what was happening to me and I would have understood that the wake-up call that I was trying to make could have been replaced by something less aggressive,’ she said.
