Do you talk to your dead?
Yes, with my mother, with my teacher Pepe Estruch, with Agustí Villaronga, with Almudena Grandes, with people I love and continue to be close to. I don’t believe in God, but I do believe that the strength of the people who loved you remains: they help you decide, they are there giving you a hand.
She has chosen to live with Eduardo.
It has made me a happy woman, I love taking care of my dog ??because he takes care of me, it is very fun and it has put order in my life: it forces me to get up early to go for a great walk. He has taken me out of the house and made me change my priorities.
What priorities?
If I can’t go there at night I don’t care, I’ll stay with my sweet and friendly Eduardo. The joy that comes when I get home cannot be compared to anything.
Have you discovered another way of love?
In love the most important thing is to be cared for and cared for, and with it I can do it every day of my life and that makes me feel very good.
You had a crowded childhood.
Yes, we are eight brothers; a lot of noise, revelry and friendship, but there was no personal space for so many creatures. We lived in a very small house. I believe that this has led to me living alone, that I adore silence and that I do not like coexistence, because until I was 22 I lived surrounded by people.
What don’t you forget about your childhood?
A phrase from my mother: “No matter what happens, the refrigerator is always full.” Coming home and having something to eat, that’s a home: you survive and you welcome. My refrigerator is always full.
Middle class family?
Middle-low. My father was an accountant in a workshop and my mother worked in a cafeteria, from her I learned to make decisions and that freedom that she had. She decided to separate in the sixties, something really strange, and she became a pest in the family. That marked us all: never be where you don’t want to be.
And about his father?
I didn’t know him much, he died when I was 18 and they separated when I was seven.
What has made her so free?
Make decisions for myself and be very aware that opting for something is giving up something else. The greatest act of freedom is being able to choose, that’s why, even though I have a profession that ties me down a lot, I feel free.
Have you felt alone despite your choice?
I have no problems with loneliness, it is my territory, where I feel most comfortable. When I am with a lot of people I get confused, not being able to have time for myself is bad for me. Being alone at home I am very happy, and traveling alone or going to the movies or eating alone… I like it.
What has it cost you to learn?
To say no. When you realize that saying no respectfully and carefully doesn’t offend anyone, it’s a liberation.
Constantly being in the shoes of others, what does it do to you?
Realize that most of the defects you see in others you also have. It makes you be more tolerant, more understanding, and ask yourself why people do what they do, something we almost never do.
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It has made me more supportive, look inward and question myself. You learn a lot from acting when you do it thoroughly and seriously. I have true devotion to what I do. I feel that I have a social work, I want to help people with what I do.
What things matter in life?
There are many unhappy people inside, not because of economic or relational reasons, they simply have not discovered what makes them happy. My teacher said that everyone has a talent and exercising it will make you happy. But that is not all.
There is more?
I believe that we overlook the simplest, closest and most tangible things and they are often the ones that give us the most joy. For me, a good conversation with friends gives me happiness for months, more than the most exotic trip.
What do you value?
Generosity, letting go of selfishness, letting go… Furthermore, everything goes away, everything passes, so share what you have. And be enjoyable, not overlook the extraordinary of the everyday. Today, with this splendid day, you have to have a drink in the sun.
What do you fear about the future?
Losing the illusion, but I have never lost it. I get excited about two pipes and I try to live with my eyes wide open; I’m too young for that, somehow, if I lose the girl, where do I go.
Is there anything you want to tell that you haven’t told yet?
I want to direct again, write. I would love to go to New York to study screenwriting. I don’t care if I’m 70 years old, I have no problem with that, each thing in its own time. I would love to go to the Basque Culinary Center and spend a year studying cooking there. There are so many things that catch my attention!
